TGIF, mates!
This morning I went to the trail and did another 3 miles :) It took 5 minutes longer today than yesterday because:
1. I forgot to pee before I went, so I had to pee in nature which meant that I just stood there for an extended period of time looking/listening around me to make sure there was no one else within eye/ear shot.
2. The spiderwebs were seriously out of control. I had to pause multiple times just to make sure that there weren't eggs being implanted into my pores. Yuck, I didn't feel good about that.
3. I kept tripping! I was so worried about the damn spiderwebs that I wasn't paying attention to what was beneath my feet so I came VERY close to literally 'biting the dust' on multiple occasions!
Aside from the run/hike this morning, I didn't do all that much.
Food went pretty well until this afternoon when I mistakenly allowed myself to get to the point of ravenous hunger and, well I fucked up. Here's my day of eating:
Breakfast
Vegan protein shake w/ light soy milk
1/2 c oatmeal w/ cinnamon and raisins (cooked in water)
Snack
7 tortilla chips and salsa (7 chips is one portion - I actually counted!)
Lunch
Pizza on homemade Whole Wheat pizza crust with a plethora of veggies and herbs (no cheese, obviously)
Snack
Carrots and hummus
More than a portion of chips and salsa
Handful of peanut butter filled pretzels
Dinner
Not eating dinner tonight. I snacked late enough and had enough calories in the snack I don't feel it's necessary... and I'm going out tonight :)
Yes, I'm going out but I'm committing to only drinking vodka and soda water (no beer!) and no cigarettes.
Tomorrow is going to be my rest day. My legs were hurting pretty bad after my run today! I believe I'll be spending the afternoon soaking up the sun with my dear friend by the pool :)
That's all I have for today! Enjoy your weekend! Make healthy choices :)
Friday, July 13, 2012
Thursday, July 12, 2012
One More Time...
I can only imagine what you're all thinking at this point. I know, I know.. I've said a million times "I'm back!" and then I fuck it up and let everything else take over my brain. Case in point, the last month(ish). I don't know if any of you fine readers have been through a separation/divorce situation but damnit, it's not easy. I'll be honest in saying that I've been really depressed lately and in dealing with all of this it has brought a crap-ton of issues that I never even realized I had to the front line. Which only makes me more depressed. So, I've been drowning and suffocating my sorrows with booze and cigarettes and eating anything and everything bad for me (hello french fries on the daily) and not working out. Shocking (or not, obviously), I feel like shit. Well, felt like shit. Because I think my head is finally back on correctly. (serious this time)
I went out on Tuesday night and there was a photographer at the bar taking random candid shots of everyone having a great time... he snapped a photo of me and as he took it I was thinking to myself "This is a great angle, I can't wait to see this!"... and then this morning I woke up and saw the picture online. Holy puffy face, batman. I was REALLY upset to see myself looking so awful and inflated. Then I started thinking, "Hey dummy, you just spent the last year working your ass off (literally) and you're fucking it up!" SO I'm done. I'm done abusing my body. I'm done allowing this depression to ruin my current and future life. I'm done feeling sorry for myself.
The offensive picture:
After making this decision I immediately got dressed and went out to my favorite park to run my favorite trail. I ran a 3 mile trail (including a 1 mile uphill hike) in 47 minutes. I was pretty pleased with my time! Beyond the time factor, I was sweating my ass off, I could feel the burn in said ass while hiking uphill and I felt great at the end. After that, I made far better food choices today and tried to keep a water bottle with me at all times. Also, after dinner I took Nora on a 3.25 mile walk, which also stirred up quite the sweat. :) Now, at 11ish pm, I feel better than I have in quite some time. I was still in a pissy/annoyed/slightly depressed mood today and damnit if I wasn't tempted to just dominate a giant bag of tortilla chips and salsa but I just kept telling myself "NO!"... and for the first time in some time, I actually listened.
I already told you about my exercise today, so here's what I ate:
Breakfast
Vegan protein shake w/ light soy milk
Snack
2 stalks of Celery with peanut butter
Lunch
Small bowl of brown rice/refried black beans/veggies (zucchini, mushrooms, bell peppers, onions)/avocado/salsa
Snack
None
Dinner
Whole wheat penne pasta w/ grilled veggies and fire roasted tomatoes
Late Snack (not recommended but I was hungry after the walk)
2 stalks of celery with peanut butter
I'm pleased with my choices today! All healthy and all totally delicious :)
Something else that I decided today was to start an Active Women's group! I created the group on Facebook called Active Women of NKY . The purpose of the group is to get the ladies of NKY moving, or to help the ladies that already move stay motivated and meet new friends! I want to spread the knowledge that being fit can be fun and doesn't always have to mean just going to a gym! If you're on Facebook and you're interested, click the link above and 'Like' the page to keep updated on our fit outings (walks/hikes/track runs/canoeing etc) or if you're not on Facebook, you can always email me at thelosingpath@hotmail.com! :) I really hope that this group catches on!
I realized that one of the reasons I was having a hard time getting my motivation back was the gym. Thinking about going to the gym and using the same equipment or doing the same workouts just sounded awful to me. Now, I know that there are plenty of ways to switch things up in the gym, but I'm just not feeling the whole atmosphere right now. My brain needs to be free, so I'm sticking with outdoor activities for the time being! Trail running has become one of my very favorite things to do! It's like meditation/therapy mixed with exercise and I love it. It's very challenging but fun and relaxing at the same time. I saw a deer on my run on Tuesday! And I swam in spiderwebs today.... ah, the beauty of nature. lol :) My goal is to run the trail 3 times per week. I'm not making any promises because it's a little far out (approx 25 minute drive in the country - a beautiful drive!) but I am going to do my best to stick with it! The trails coupled with the activity of my new women's group and my re-found nutrition discipline SHOULD keep me going in the right direction!
I'm also looking forward to this women's group for myself to use as an accountability source. I hate to say it, but I need that right now. I feel like I should be the one motivating and keeping others accountable, but my mind is not feeling as strong as normal and having someone giving me a quick kick in the ass every now and again could do a world of good. :)
Well, I suppose that's all I have for now! Thank you again again again for sticking with my Losing Path , I promise to do my best to get this shit back in gear!
Until tomorrow :)
I went out on Tuesday night and there was a photographer at the bar taking random candid shots of everyone having a great time... he snapped a photo of me and as he took it I was thinking to myself "This is a great angle, I can't wait to see this!"... and then this morning I woke up and saw the picture online. Holy puffy face, batman. I was REALLY upset to see myself looking so awful and inflated. Then I started thinking, "Hey dummy, you just spent the last year working your ass off (literally) and you're fucking it up!" SO I'm done. I'm done abusing my body. I'm done allowing this depression to ruin my current and future life. I'm done feeling sorry for myself.
The offensive picture:
After making this decision I immediately got dressed and went out to my favorite park to run my favorite trail. I ran a 3 mile trail (including a 1 mile uphill hike) in 47 minutes. I was pretty pleased with my time! Beyond the time factor, I was sweating my ass off, I could feel the burn in said ass while hiking uphill and I felt great at the end. After that, I made far better food choices today and tried to keep a water bottle with me at all times. Also, after dinner I took Nora on a 3.25 mile walk, which also stirred up quite the sweat. :) Now, at 11ish pm, I feel better than I have in quite some time. I was still in a pissy/annoyed/slightly depressed mood today and damnit if I wasn't tempted to just dominate a giant bag of tortilla chips and salsa but I just kept telling myself "NO!"... and for the first time in some time, I actually listened.
I already told you about my exercise today, so here's what I ate:
Breakfast
Vegan protein shake w/ light soy milk
Snack
2 stalks of Celery with peanut butter
Lunch
Small bowl of brown rice/refried black beans/veggies (zucchini, mushrooms, bell peppers, onions)/avocado/salsa
Snack
None
Dinner
Whole wheat penne pasta w/ grilled veggies and fire roasted tomatoes
Late Snack (not recommended but I was hungry after the walk)
2 stalks of celery with peanut butter
I'm pleased with my choices today! All healthy and all totally delicious :)
Something else that I decided today was to start an Active Women's group! I created the group on Facebook called Active Women of NKY . The purpose of the group is to get the ladies of NKY moving, or to help the ladies that already move stay motivated and meet new friends! I want to spread the knowledge that being fit can be fun and doesn't always have to mean just going to a gym! If you're on Facebook and you're interested, click the link above and 'Like' the page to keep updated on our fit outings (walks/hikes/track runs/canoeing etc) or if you're not on Facebook, you can always email me at thelosingpath@hotmail.com! :) I really hope that this group catches on!
I realized that one of the reasons I was having a hard time getting my motivation back was the gym. Thinking about going to the gym and using the same equipment or doing the same workouts just sounded awful to me. Now, I know that there are plenty of ways to switch things up in the gym, but I'm just not feeling the whole atmosphere right now. My brain needs to be free, so I'm sticking with outdoor activities for the time being! Trail running has become one of my very favorite things to do! It's like meditation/therapy mixed with exercise and I love it. It's very challenging but fun and relaxing at the same time. I saw a deer on my run on Tuesday! And I swam in spiderwebs today.... ah, the beauty of nature. lol :) My goal is to run the trail 3 times per week. I'm not making any promises because it's a little far out (approx 25 minute drive in the country - a beautiful drive!) but I am going to do my best to stick with it! The trails coupled with the activity of my new women's group and my re-found nutrition discipline SHOULD keep me going in the right direction!
I'm also looking forward to this women's group for myself to use as an accountability source. I hate to say it, but I need that right now. I feel like I should be the one motivating and keeping others accountable, but my mind is not feeling as strong as normal and having someone giving me a quick kick in the ass every now and again could do a world of good. :)
Well, I suppose that's all I have for now! Thank you again again again for sticking with my Losing Path , I promise to do my best to get this shit back in gear!
Until tomorrow :)
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